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Consumed by pain…

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I am in absolute misery and pain. I have had two appointments with my chiropractor but I know that process is slow. I can barely move and each time I get up from the toilet or take too many steps I have to deal with 15-20 minutes of the most painful debilitating spasms in the world. This is the worst thing ever…ever since the third trimester hit I have been in hell. My first due date based on my LMP is this Saturday. Oh how I wish that was the real and final and only due date but my ultrasounds had it moved to November 14. I cannot imagine another three full weeks of this hell as of tomorrow. Am hoping something will happen before then. Never have I been so consumed with pain and misery. I will never not appreciate normal life again!

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Just like in a bad horror movie…it’s BACK!!

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Ahhhhh! I could just scream. Around September 21 or so my pregnancy related back and leg pain finally was resolved after at least a good 6 weeks of chiropractic treatment. Now, this week, all of a sudden it is back! This time it is not on the left side but the right side. Supposedly it is because my body is getting ready for labor. I just want to cry. It really really hurts.

In my last post I did a lot of venting and mentioned at least I was not suffering physically anymore…ha ha ha… I spoke too soon. I am now wishing for last week!!! However, I am stuck with this reality now. Tomorrow I have a chiropractor appointment booked anyway (I dropped down to once a week just in case rather than quitting cold turkey) and will have to start from the beginning again…on the other side of my body. Luckily I am 36 weeks pregnant and if the baby comes out sooner rather than later I hope this issue will be resolved that way FOREVER. At least I pray so. This is awful.

Time is ticking slowly by and am trying to keep busy but this pain is making it hard as I am already starting to see the mobility issues which makes me just want to sit home. This time the onset was so sudden as well. If only I had two or three more weeks!

I am just dying to have this baby now. I would love to GET IT OUT asap but know I cannot. The only good news I have is that some of my mucus plug has come out in the last day or two. I am hoping this means baby will be following soon….but I know it could still be weeks. 😦

Anyways, pregnancy sucks. Cannot wait to be done and to meet my little guy who I know will be worth it but, it sure is hard to be positive in the moment! Hope everyone else is enjoying life more than I am right now.

Okay…just going to accept it…

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This morning I felt really down and I cried. I let myself cry as it felt really good. Like a big release of stress and tension. I am now 35 weeks pregnant. My LMP was January 21 so my due date should have been October 28th. I moved to India for work at the end of my first trimester and did my scans there. They gave me some due dates in early November. Okay, fine, but I did not really believe it.

Then I came back to North America for a family event and suddenly had back and leg issues which put me out on medical leave early. This was August. I started seeing the local doctor again. He reviewed my medical records from India and did his own assessments. I am happy to report I recently passed the glucose test (thank goodness as I really did not want to deal with all that!).

Last month my doctor said they would keep an eye on me to determine my REAL due date as the information was conflicting in all the reports and earlier tests were more accurate so October was looking good. Earlier this week he says my due date will probably be November 14. I wanted to punch him in the face. November 14 is just so far it seems and I am so sick and tired of being pregnant and doing nothing all day. My back and leg pain has been mostly resolved thanks to my chiropractor but the clock watching, boredom, and general discomfort is driving me over the edge. I was REALLY hoping everything was wrong and October it would be…just so I can finally be DONE but no such luck. I have just HAD it and want to see this baby but now I just need to accept it will be November and find a way to get through. I have never been so miserable (not physically thankfully) before. It is so hard for me not to be productive and doing something with my life. I cannot seem to do much due to the pregnancy though…Pregnancy really needs to be 6 months tops! They have got to find a way.

In other news, I have washed all the laundry for the baby, set up everything for him, and registered at the hospital. Baby is still head down and moving a lot. My belly also grew a lot all of a sudden and I have a real looking baby bump. In the past it was very slow. I also started to finally gain a bit of weight whereas up until now I was losing it or staying the same. Blood tests also have shown my iron, which was great a few months ago, has plummeted recently but the doctor says it is not a big deal as the hemoglobin levels are still high but I can take iron tablets if I want. I started as I am sure they will benefit me even afterwards as I am prone to low iron. Kind of sucks as it took me forever to get to a good level. Oh well.

Anyway, just needed to vent and already feel a bit better. I realize I go a bit mad if I am not keeping busy. Will need to find some things to do…which is hard because the things I would usually want to do I am physically incapable of doing. Sigh…pregnancy really sucks in the third trimester.

My baby shower!

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As much as I hate baby showers, I had a great time at my own! My two sisters were the hostesses and, I admit, had me a bit worried when they had to run around the morning of the event shopping for appetizers but all went well in the end. I had about 25-30 guests and felt a lot of positive vibes, got a lot of well wishes, tips, and advice. Best of all was connecting with all the wonderful ladies in my life (those that could attend, that is).

The theme of the day was a jungle animals theme. My sisters did a great job decorating and ordered cupcakes that had animal faces on them. They were so cute no one wanted to eat them. The most important thing, though, was that they tasted great. Ha ha ha. I was a bit worried the appies would not be enough but they were fine. My famous punch was a bit hit as always.

We did not play games (as I find them to be torturous and lame) but spent the first hour socializing as many knew each other already but there is not always time to connect. Then we had a fortune teller arrive. Ladies got to step into a private room with her and get a free reading (the older ladies loved it). Afterwards we would ask each other what she said and many ladies opened up about the issues they are dealing with so it was a great way to bond and connect over common themes. Some found her great and some said she was rubbish.

The last hour or so was spent opening gifts. I got spoiled with all kinds of cute things though almost no one purchased anything off my registry. It was fun to see all the baby stuff (and made it seem real) but I don’t like that much attention on me so it was a bit awkward. My husband had to work but he chimed in on Skype and the phone a few times.

Afterwards, the guests left and we did a quick clean up. That night my mom and sisters and I stayed up til 4 am chatting which we have not done in a long time. I must say these things definitely bring families closer together! As much as I hate baby showers, I am glad I had one as it has filled me with more love for all the fab ladies in my life.

OB GYN follow up appointments…

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This week I had another follow up appointment with the doctor. My doctor is always late so this time I took a book. Also, I was again amazed at how many pregnant women there are when I go to this office. Of course, this is just one office in one town. I cannot imagine how many more in the country or world there are. It seems like everyone is pregnant. Crazy.

Anyway, as usual, they did a urine test, checked my weight, checked my blood pressure, used a heart rate monitor or whatever it is on my stomach, and then asked if I had any questions. I wanted to ask HOW MUCH LONGER!? but already know they cannot answer. My “homework” is to do the 3 hour glucose test (yuck..been avoiding this one) and register at the hospital.

I asked the doctor if I should bother taking the child birth and other classes and he said some people found it helpful but did not seem very convincing so thus far am probably not going to take them. He did confirm the baby is head down right now but may flip around a few more times. I have to go back in two weeks and then probably once a week after that until the little one arrives. Right now I am about 33 weeks according to one of the ultrasounds but believe I am further along…at 35.5 weeks as per my last period. We will just have to see but I am convinced this baby will probably come “early” in October rather than November. I know I am soooo ready for this pregnancy to wrap up. I am terribly uncomfortable and bored. Getting impatient and totally ready to meet our little guy. Third trimester is for sure the worst.

Upcoming baby shower…

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Okay…I have posted in the past about how much I hate baby showers. Of course, they are a reality of life and I attended those I had to attend. All of them were painful in some way or another and I could not wait to get away! Now my own baby shower is coming up. My two sisters were happy to host it but I told them I want it not to be a painful experience so no games! In fact, I just want it to be a chance for everyone to get together and spend some time together.

So, we will be hosting it on a Sunday afternoon at my parent’s house for 3 hours. We will have appetizers and cute cupcakes and punch and tea. The theme is baby jungle animals. I find it dull when the mom to be opens presents for most of the event but it seems everyone LOVES that so we will spend the last hour doing that. My sisters also hired a fortune teller to keep it interesting. She will be doing mini-readings for the guests.

We are expecting about 40 friends and family members. It will be great to see all of them. I am getting pretty excited about the event and about the baby. All these rituals and actually seeing the baby stuff is sure making this feel real!

Month 8 sucks…

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So I am in my 8th month of pregnancy…and it sucks. Of course it sucks more because I am still not able to walk normally and, though I do not need them ALL the time, I still do need to use crutches quite a bit on a daily basis. The good news is that I am definitely getting better for sure. Anyway, back to my rant! This month-the 8th-really does suck. I am soooo ready to be done and have this baby be born but I have a feeling it will take me the full 40 weeks plus a few! Luckily my due date is in dispute so I will probably not have to go past 39 (as it may really be 40-42!).

Funny intro to baby jokes…my husband may benefit from these!

What are the issues, you ask? Well, besides the back and leg issue that is still going on (though now the pain is gone and it is just an awkward gait I have that requires crutches to walk normally or the pain returns), I find it extremely hard to be comfortable at ALL times. Yes, I did not really gain weight during the pregnancy but a baby bump has definitely formed and is it EVER hard to go from sitting to standing and SUPER hard to roll over at night from one side to the other. I have become a person who regularly grunts. Everything is squished up inside me so I can only eat small portions (or I feel like I will explode) and breathing can be harder now that it is harder for the lungs to fill up quite so much. The baby also kicks and moves a lot still (which makes me think we still have a long way to go as they say movement decreases as they get full term and do not have so much room).

This month I also jumped out of my skin a few times as I felt like I was getting a shock from within. Turns out this is called “lightening crotch” and usually means the baby touches the nerves near the cervix which are very sensitive and can make you feel like something is jolting you from within. So strange and sometimes it can hurt. The good news is that it may mean the baby is getting into the right position. Other than that I find I need to take a daily nap and the bathroom is the most important room in the home. Ha ha ha. I am also so thirsty and drink heaps of water which then makes me uncomfortable.

Since I am not working (or walking around much so cannot get out often) I think I am left to dwell on the discomforts a bit more. Realistically, other than this leg issue, it would be “handleable” to do this again (though I have no intention to). Generally, I had an easy pregnancy overall and I should not be complaining so much. A friend of mine is 6 months and has been vomiting and ill since day one. I could not imagine going through that and still being a nice person.

My husband and I slowly getting baby ready, though, which helps keep me a bit positive as it is making the realization that we will have a cute little monkey with us soon-and people all say this will make it all worth it. It better! 🙂 We have the bed and bassinet all set for the baby (a gift from my sister) and yesterday my aunt took me to the store to pick out a car seat as she wanted to be the one who bought it for us. So, I ended up picking out one, and my husband, after giving our car a good cleaning, installed it. It is a bit of a giant but at least that is out of the way just in case there are any surprises and the baby comes early.

I also bought some baby wash, lotion, diapers, and wipes in a small quantity so we can get through the first few days-and because they say you need to make sure your baby is not allergic to said brand so you should start with small sample first. I chose the Dove baby brand-hope it works out-and Pampers for newborns. We have a dresser on the upper floor of the house we want to use for the baby’s many belongings to come so I need to empty it out and then my husband will bring it down the stairs. I would have bought more by now but cannot really carry much with my crutches so wait until someone comes with me and then make them do it! Haha.

Next weekend is the baby shower-which I am definitely looking forward to-but am expecting no one will buy me anything off the registry so will probably end up with a million little clothes. These can fill that dresser. Once the baby shower is done I will buy all the missing items I need online and then we will be baby ready…in terms of stuff. I have not started mentally or physically preparing myself for the birth part at all but sooo not ready to even think about all that yet!! Need to save something for month 9, I guess!