Mat leave goals…


I cannot believe two months have passed since our little guy was born! Time seems to have just flown by. Baby has gained a few pounds, gone through many diapers, had his first shots, and chugged heaps of milk. He is getting stronger and more alert each day. My life seems a bit strange and unrecognizable…and I do not know who I will be when the months go by but I am not disturbed by it.

The good news is that: 1). I have recovered from the nerve pain and can walk normally again. 2). Christmas was low key but great. I got the single serve coffee maker I wanted and a fancy panini press for great grilled cheese sandwiches (yummy!). 3). Our baby’s reflux issues have also calmed down a bit now that we have switched formula and are trying a new medicine. Unfortunately, he still spits it all up at least once a day and can only handle a max of 3 ounces per feeding. Hopefully this will improve, though, and he will begin to gain weight normally.

Now that the holidays are done with and things feel more stable with the baby, I am ready to rejoin the real world and look forward again. I will have 10 more months off before my paid maternity leave is complete. I, of course, will spend heaps of time taking care of my little one but also want to do some good things this year. So, I need to come up with some great mat leave goals. In the next while I will be thinking about this more carefully so I can focus my attention in the right place. Any ideas?


Bye 2017…hello 2018!!


2017 is gone. I will miss it. It was a great year. We had so many blessings in our lives. My husband obtained his citizenship and got his passport, I got my dream foreign assignment job, we became pregnant, we flew over Niagara Falls in a helicopter, we moved to India for 3 months, we paid off our debts and saved a big chunk of money, we traveled all over India, we enjoyed a family wedding, my husband visited his home country after 6 years, we had our baby, and we bought an apartment in my husband’s home city. Amazing! What a year!

There were some bad things as well, of course. Both of us had family members who had issues recently and I had horrible pain towards the end of the pregnancy. The good obviously outweighed the bad.

Now it is the first day of 2018. I am hoping this year will also be a great one…probably not quite as exciting as I am on maternity leave during most of it but still!

Wishing everyone a very happy new year and the best for 2018 🙂

Mom hell: reflux!


Not my baby but wish he would only spit up this much instead of the crazy amount that seems to come out.

I am in mommy hell due to reflux. My baby has milk 8 times a day and was spitting up (what seemed like ALL the milk he consumed) 8 times a day!! It was gross, it produced a lot of laundry, and it freaked me out. What was wrong with my baby?! I did some research online and suspected reflux. I tried to give smaller portions and feed more often and hold him up for up to an hour after each feeding and nothing was working. I worried about his weight and health.

This is what he looks like when screaming during burping….makes for some hellish 3 and 6 am feedings.

I then went to the doctor as the next step as the internet said reflux is not serious as long as the baby does not seem to be in pain.

They prescribed Zantac. It worked the first day. The second day the baby threw up twice so I decreased the amount of milk a bit and it helped. The next two days all seemed well again until the baby seemed hungry so I increased the milk amount. Now the last two days the baby seems to throw up the first feeding after taking the medicine but not at other feedings. I guess this is still good BUT the baby seems to now hate burping and seems fussy at various points in the day. I tried to reduce the amount of milk per feeding again and feed more often but he then seems like he is starving all the time although the milk per day is the same. So, now I am a bit at a loss!

My next step is to increase the dosage a little bit as we are currently at the lowest amount of the range for his weight…but not sure if this will work as he only throws up during the feedings immediately after the medication. Hmmm. Will give it a try for a day or two and then back to the doctor. Man, reflux is hellish!!

Hard to get into the Christmas spirit…


The weather has been great. I have not been to many malls or stores. I have not been socializing much. I am spending most of my time with my new baby. Could these be the reasons it just does not seem like Christmas is less than 10 days away? This is the first year in quite some time that I feel like I have not gotten into the Christmas spirit. In fact, I just finished putting up the tree a few days ago (and it felt like an obligation more than a pleasure). However, yesterday my husband and I got all dressed up and took the baby down to the local mall for his first photo with Santa. He looked a little grumpy in it but it was nice.

We have had a great year so decided to buy gifts that are a bit more special this year. For each family member we splurged a little and think everyone will be delighted come Christmas. I managed to get everything in the last few days as I have not been in the shopping mood. I have also realized there is very little I want myself and I am very content. I am not very interested in material things but my heart always longs to travel and explore. I am guessing we will have some adventures in 2018. However, my family insisted I produce somewhat of a wish list to help them so the top item I asked for was a single cup coffee machine like a Kuerig or Tassimo. This will make my new maternity leave life a lot easier!

Anyway, hopefully the Christmas mood will hit me in the next few days!

Mouse in my house…


There is a mouse in my house and I am freaking out! A week or two ago I heard some strange sounds that seemed to be coming from in the walls. The heating system makes similar noise sometimes so I brushed it off. Then, earlier this week I got up to get some milk for my baby late at night and saw a mouse scurry under the couch. I let out a shriek and ran back into the bedroom. After some time I got up my courage and returned to the room to see it rush into the bathroom. It was there that it seemed to disappear.

The next day I inspected the washroom and removed a heating vent cover. Some pipes go into the wall and there is a hole there. This seems to be where the mouse came from. I turned to Google for some advice and have some very specific tasks for my husband this weekend!! As far as I can tell there is only one visitor (at this point) and I would like to keep it that way. I have lived on a farm so know exactly how out of control mice can get unless you take care of them promptly. Hopefully we will be able to solve this problem this weekend. Wish me luck!

December 2017: Things to look forward to…


The last month of this crazy year is here! Time has been flying with my baby on board and life has all been about the small things lately. In December, here is what I am expecting to look forward to:

  • My dad meeting baby for the first time-my dad has been out of the country but will be back soon and get to meet his grandson.
  • Christmas and the holiday season-I look forward to all the festivities.
  • Baby progress. This month I will watch my baby grow and do new things. Such a pleasure.

Baby has arrived!


My baby has arrived! In my last post I went on about how miserable I was due to joint and nerve pain. I had hoped I would have my baby on my original due date (Oct 28) rather than the one they gave me after the ultrasound (Nov 14) as I just could not take any more pain…and three to five weeks more seemed like an eternity. Well, it turned out that my little guy was born on that exact date (Oct 28!). What had happened was that I had an appointment with my OB at which I reported my extreme pain to him and he sent me to the hospital. There they must have felt sorry for me…and noticed the regular medicines were not helping me…and agreed to induce me as distress for a mom to be is not good.

Two days later I was back and the induction started. It seemed to be working slowly. However, I had a reaction to the drugs and suddenly was in more pain than ever! It was horrible and I thought I was going to die. The doctors said there was not much else to do other than have an emergency c section. This is rare but they recognized I was suffering and in distress and that no other medicines would be safe for the baby. So, on October 28th, in the evening I suddenly found myself in the operating room. I was terrified…especially since I did not realize one is actually conscious during the procedure. It seemed to all be happening so fast BUT I knew it was the right thing for me as I could not take any more pain and could not wait another several weeks in pain.

Soon I was in the operating table and frozen from the chest down though I could still feel pulling and movement. The doctors and nurses were great and in a short while I heard the doctor say the baby had a big head. A moment later there was a cry. My husband and I were overwhelmed as suddenly he was put on my chest before me. I stared at him in shock a few minutes. Who was this?! How strange to see this human that had been inside me! They took him away and did some measuring. 8lbs and 3 ounces they said! My husband left with them and the rest of the surgery went on. Soon I was rolled out to the recovery room and got to stare at my naked baby for much longer. He was so cute and we had skin to skin time as a nurse began to teach me and him how to latch on for breastfeeding. My husband and I were in love.

For the next two days we stayed in the hospital with our little one. At first I felt amazing physically as the drugs were still in effect (c section is awesome I have decided) but by morning they had worn off and I was horrified to still have my leg pain. Pains from the c section were there but just a minor irritant compared to this leg and hip pain. Because of it my husband had to step up and do EVERYTHING for the first few days. He did all the feeding (my breast milk came in at 4 days so bottle of formula it was), diaper changing, swaddling, cuddling, bathing, and learning from the hospital staff. I assured the nurses I would learn from him later. They were a bit doubtful at first but saw how great he was and said he was a super dad. We were discharged a bit early and went home.

Since then life has been taking place in 3 hour blocks of feeding, changing, pumping, and sleeping. The first few days were exhausting but I learned to sleep when the little one does and be prepared ahead of time for the night feedings which are the worst. My husband went back to work after two weeks and, despite a serious limp and leg/hip/back/knee pain, I am handling our little guy on my own when he is at work. It was hard at first due to the pain and I felt very sad and guilty I could not take care of him as I wanted BUT I know I will soon be fine and all will be well again…plus I am meeting all his needs despite it not being the way I would like so no need to be so hard on myself.

I can definitely attest to the fact that a new mother feels a SURGE of emotions and the mother instinct does kick in. For me I feel an intense possessiveness, protectiveness, and love. I have to force myself to let others hold him and visit with us as I just wanted him and my husband all to myself and for us to never leave the house or let anyone in!!! Ha ha ha. Luckily, I have gotten over that a bit but those feelings were very strong at first and my family was not impressed as they felt I did not trust them.

I just wanted to quickly write this blog post as an update but there are a thousand more things I can say and write about in detail from food to baths to breastfeeding to changes in our marriage etc. Will try to keep on top of it!